today and yesterday marked a new phase in my life. like my babe, told me yesterday, i definitely will need to face this once and for all. yup.facing it right now and it hurts. don't wanna face it again. i just hope that everything will be ok again and how i wish that i didn't do that stupid... thing. is it even a thing?? haiiih. i don't know. should be no one knew about my blog right? *self monologue* at least not the people that i don't want them to know about any of this. gaaaahh! sleeping is hard with this kind of emotion. final exam for Business Maths this wednesday. i need to put this aside and focus on my study first. that's my definite purpose here. all those mix feelings can wait.*though actually it can't*sob*sob*
what to do? i don't know what to say and how to start the conversation. i'm not use to this. this feeling is totally new for me. huhuhu. just take this as another experience and the thing that will mature me. but really hope that we'll be great like we used to. *sigh* will that ever happen? again? having fun and hang-out together like we used to? yes? no? maybe? with out being awkward to each other. i shall be the soul-sister that i had promise i will. no more heart feelings and no more stupid jealousy. just a sincere feeling for some one who is dear to me. that's my pledge. no more tears. i don't want 'us' to be base on tears. but only infinity of happiness together with our other besties. what ever happen. what ever the verdict is.
i'll accept it.
it's glad to know that i have someone that i can rely on. and someone whom i knew i can trust with all my heart. thank you so much for being there with me and support me and listens to me patiently.
uwwwwaaaa!
writing all this, i feel like i'm some kind of a freaking immatured teenager. i'm not 16 for crying out loud! i'm already 20! get a grip will you. stop being so childish and short minded. thing before you throw! haaaah. i'm so emberassed.
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what to do? i don't know what to say and how to start the conversation. i'm not use to this. this feeling is totally new for me. huhuhu. just take this as another experience and the thing that will mature me. but really hope that we'll be great like we used to. *sigh* will that ever happen? again? having fun and hang-out together like we used to? yes? no? maybe? with out being awkward to each other. i shall be the soul-sister that i had promise i will. no more heart feelings and no more stupid jealousy. just a sincere feeling for some one who is dear to me. that's my pledge. no more tears. i don't want 'us' to be base on tears. but only infinity of happiness together with our other besties. what ever happen. what ever the verdict is.
i'll accept it.
it's glad to know that i have someone that i can rely on. and someone whom i knew i can trust with all my heart. thank you so much for being there with me and support me and listens to me patiently.
uwwwwaaaa!
writing all this, i feel like i'm some kind of a freaking immatured teenager. i'm not 16 for crying out loud! i'm already 20! get a grip will you. stop being so childish and short minded. thing before you throw! haaaah. i'm so emberassed.
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p/s: hungryyy!! no one wants to walk with me to the 7-E huhuhu. T___T seems like food have to wait till tomorrow. be patient tummy.
