i've never ever been in this situation before..you know when you hav to decide whats-best-for-my-future
stuff..hmm..well,im definitely no clue what i should do..then suddenly,i've decided to join a volunteering
program..i've already sign in to be the voluteer..jaust wait and see whether will be choosen or not..then,another
thing about college..what should i do witj it??i'm thinking about starting all over again from diploma..but my dad
and brotrher,did'n't really agree with that..they said it will take years to finish..so,my dad ask me to apply for
teacher..its the same thing..i still have to start from diploma..so the years countingh ahead,is similar..i really don't
see myself as a teacher..(bleh ke aku jd cekgu ummu?)if i am a teacher,i guess i'll be like YANKUMI in
GOKUSEN..haaaah..i do pity my so-called-fiuture-students..(O.0)..as i said,i've been sing up to be a
volunteer..maybe AFRICA is what i need for me to determine my future..hmm...earlier,i insanely wanted to be an
architect because i believe that i have the talent..but,i dont think i cap cope with the syllabus..especially the
maths!!!!!!!!!!!!!!my worst nightmare..i had a litlle chat with my dad just now...ohh nooo..he sounded really
dissapointed+insanely worried...ahhhhhhhhh!!!!i really wanted to go for this volunteering program!!!!please,give me a
chance..ok,back to what i wrote earlier..i;m thinking about HOTELIER..will it be a great job??hmmm...i just
want to apply for social science courses..no more all those crazy and get-on-my-nerve subjects...no
more..ENOUGH!!!!!soooooo.....i really have no clue what to do..and i am living in grief..you,know,when all your
friends are having the time of their life deciding their future, but you have to live in the house,facing your parents
worried face everyday..and beeing compared to your succesful friend..OH GOD..my life is pathetic..now i realise
that, all my friends are very successful...hmm...my life didn't go as i plan..so i have(!!!!) to make a new plan..i call
it "FUTURE PLANNING;ONCE AND FOR ALL MISSION"...my future is in my hand..no one else can
determine it..its all up to me now..hah...i feel relieve coz i finally,can blurt everything out,because,i ='m not the
kind of person who tell others about their probs..i guess,having this blog is a good thing though..so,i'm not sure
when will i have the chance to online again..but, i'll keep you updated about what happen in my life and what is
my decission..or,whether i get the chance to join the volunteering program or not....haaaaaaahhhh...i really wish that some kind of prince charming; rich and handsome will come and take me out of this misery...huhuhuhuhu..(T_T)..oppaaa!!!!(LEE MINHO :p)
.KAMSAMIDA..JAA NA,,(o,O)
by :meloveoriental
