Wednesday 21 September 2011

:: is that even matter ? ? ::

super sleepy after a chapter . OMG i need to speed up . happy time's over ! okiiteeeee ! ! :O

called mama due to overloaded sleepiness . huaaaaaaa ! >O< talk to my 2nd nii-chan about his interview with the Hitachi Factory . i really hope that he will get the job plus the feedback from the HR people was good according to nii-chan's story . Please, i pray to you, help my nii-chan . . Amin .

then, texted my an-chan . he's same-o-same-o problem . i don't understand why the parents should stand in the way of their child's decision. enough with advices, but no restriction on what she wants to do . she's already 27 for crying out loud ! ! GODDDD ! stop all this nonsense please . what's wrong with having someone who is not up to the standard ; according to the parents  ? ? your daughter is just a teacher . not like she's an executive director in some well known firm . plus, primary school teacher ! ta payah na bongkak sangat laa kan makcik ! ! ! my an-chan's salary is much more than your daughter even though he's just a public bus driver in Singapore . why   ? ? you're ashamed to tell the village people that you're future son-in-law is a bus driver  ? ? ? huhhhh ! KAMPONG SANGAT LAA WEIII PEMIKIRAN KAU TUHH ! !

ahhhhh ! this really frustrated . an-chan ask me if i'm in her situation, would i accept him ? ? then i froze for a moment because i was shocked with the sudden Q . but then i reply " why not ? ? he's an earnest person, work with all his might, he never detest anything, he look for money sincerely . that is more than enough for me . i don't care if he's salary is way lower, he's job is not as big as mine and he's age is younger, as long as he lowered his ego and except me as a career woman and he knows that when i'm at home, i'm his wife and i'm his; not the executive director from some well known firm ."

what's so good about having someone who's equal standard as me but give me nothing but pain ? i know love alone is not enough . i'm not 16 . but what's wrong with relying on love only ? is money that important ? not like i was born with silver spoon . i can survive with little money . at the end of the day, love is the issue that  couple ask to each other right ? whether you love him because of money or because of him . as long as he loves me for me, never cheat on me, always be with me through happy and sad time and can get along with my crown jewel, my family, thus, love comes first for me .

but, i only have one ummmm, should i call it dream ? criteria ? wish ? duuuhh, whichever suitable ---> i want some one who's taller then me so when we hug, my head rest on his chest where i can hear his heart beat directly through my ears . euummm, something like this :
heheehehe . nice aite ? i want his chest to be my comfort zone . when i'm there, my problems fly away . haaaahhh . . ii naaa ~

Stop dreamingg ! ! !  continue study . HUNGRRRYYYY ! !

Jaa ne :D