Domo .
i'm going to wrote this before i forgot about it . having some kind of depression atm because it's going to be my killer paper tomorrow . the first paper that i need to re-seat because i failed the paper last term . damn it ! >< i'm worried because i haven't study it at all and i'm freaking hungry since i haven't ate anything at all today . begeoppa T___T and i got no cash in hand and i was wondering whether i've got enough energy left in my bodu to walk to the ATM machine somehere far away in the next kingdom . huaaahahahaha ! thank god i finished today's paper with a bit of relief . haiiihhh . . <--- whininess is a bad habit !
last sunday, he came . here ! yes here ! motives ? to visit us he said . since he's away for a long time already . so, i've got no feelings when he said he wants to come, faraway from feeling excited . i don't know . the feeling is not the same anymore . not because i've found someone else, because look at me right . who wants me ? ? but thing's already change here and he's not listed in the changes . i know i might regret writing this because he'll be hurt if he ever read this but, this is just my honest thoughts . to make it more awkward, Superboy and my yeobbo were not with me . i was texting yeobbo the whole time . updating her with everything because B was making things worst . i don't know what happen to her but suddenly with the mood swing, i'm stucked in the middle . with B won't budge from her touchy feelings and with him keep trying to make conversation like we've been together all along .
OMG ! i just wanna runaway from there . that's why i text yeobbo and said please take me away . i'm not at B but it's just that, i wish she won't make a fuss like that . after all, it's been a long time since i get the chance to hang out again with him with all of us, like we used too . but, B is much more important to me and how i wish at that time he would leave early . for good . and you don't have to come back again when you already decided long ago that you want to left everything here behind . and my baby was also with me . i was relieved :O
and ohh, i forgot to mention earlier that he was bringing he's beloved girlfriend . OMG ! i just wanna runaway ! i make look normal but my heart was crying inside and i know at the time that this love is over . for good . for myself . well that's what i thought but when it's time to depart, as always, i was looking at his back until i can't see it anymore . it's a bad habit . i almost got to tears but i need to control it because M was there with me . and thank god M was there because if she's not, i may done something stupid like run to him and give him a back-hugged . in front of his GF and more importantly in front of everyone in the mall . that will create a scene for sure . where's B ? she's already wondering around, refuse to see him . i guess he did said something serious because i know B very well . she won't do anything rational if something hasn't happen .
that's how i spent my last sunday . stuck in super awkward moment is seriuosly not intriguing at all . i wanted to runaway and just stay at home . that sure is much more peaceful .
but one thing for sure, i know i made the right choice . B and M . i can think rationally when i stop loving someone who didn't appreciate me . so easy said,
BYE ! SAYONARA !
i'm going to wrote this before i forgot about it . having some kind of depression atm because it's going to be my killer paper tomorrow . the first paper that i need to re-seat because i failed the paper last term . damn it ! >< i'm worried because i haven't study it at all and i'm freaking hungry since i haven't ate anything at all today . begeoppa T___T and i got no cash in hand and i was wondering whether i've got enough energy left in my bodu to walk to the ATM machine somehere far away in the next kingdom . huaaahahahaha ! thank god i finished today's paper with a bit of relief . haiiihhh . . <--- whininess is a bad habit !
last sunday, he came . here ! yes here ! motives ? to visit us he said . since he's away for a long time already . so, i've got no feelings when he said he wants to come, faraway from feeling excited . i don't know . the feeling is not the same anymore . not because i've found someone else, because look at me right . who wants me ? ? but thing's already change here and he's not listed in the changes . i know i might regret writing this because he'll be hurt if he ever read this but, this is just my honest thoughts . to make it more awkward, Superboy and my yeobbo were not with me . i was texting yeobbo the whole time . updating her with everything because B was making things worst . i don't know what happen to her but suddenly with the mood swing, i'm stucked in the middle . with B won't budge from her touchy feelings and with him keep trying to make conversation like we've been together all along .
OMG ! i just wanna runaway from there . that's why i text yeobbo and said please take me away . i'm not at B but it's just that, i wish she won't make a fuss like that . after all, it's been a long time since i get the chance to hang out again with him with all of us, like we used too . but, B is much more important to me and how i wish at that time he would leave early . for good . and you don't have to come back again when you already decided long ago that you want to left everything here behind . and my baby was also with me . i was relieved :O
and ohh, i forgot to mention earlier that he was bringing he's beloved girlfriend . OMG ! i just wanna runaway ! i make look normal but my heart was crying inside and i know at the time that this love is over . for good . for myself . well that's what i thought but when it's time to depart, as always, i was looking at his back until i can't see it anymore . it's a bad habit . i almost got to tears but i need to control it because M was there with me . and thank god M was there because if she's not, i may done something stupid like run to him and give him a back-hugged . in front of his GF and more importantly in front of everyone in the mall . that will create a scene for sure . where's B ? she's already wondering around, refuse to see him . i guess he did said something serious because i know B very well . she won't do anything rational if something hasn't happen .
that's how i spent my last sunday . stuck in super awkward moment is seriuosly not intriguing at all . i wanted to runaway and just stay at home . that sure is much more peaceful .
but one thing for sure, i know i made the right choice . B and M . i can think rationally when i stop loving someone who didn't appreciate me . so easy said,
BYE ! SAYONARA !
